Ethan Mars

Some days I feel like a really terrible father. Well, now that I think about it, it's more often than not, I guess..

I think my son might be having some problems at school. No matter what I try, he won't talk to me. I've called his teachers and they've all told me the same story. "Shaun has a bad attitude" "Shaun is angry" "Shaun is negative".. Things like that. It's not exactly comforting to hear them all brushing over the issue, especially when I see how Shaun is affected by it.

I know it's a possibility that he's just naturally like that, but it's so hard to believe it whenever I see that sweet smile of his. I want to find out what's troubling him, but I don't even know where to start. I can barely deal with my own problems as it is, and I'm sure he can see that. Shaun is such a smart boy. I just wish he weren't so stubborn.

Oh geez, I can't believe I've forgotten to update this journal since I made it! I've had a lot on my mind lately.. for a long time, actually.. so maybe collecting my thoughts here will help.

Recently I decided to start a garden. It'll keep me busy and hopefully relax me enough to get some plans drawn for work. I tried to get Shaun to help me with it but all he seems to want to do is sit around and watch TV... I can see he's depressed, but he'll never get over it if he mopes around. Not like I can really say anything about that, I guess..

I'm really excited about the strawberries I planted. Fresh strawberries are such a nice treat in the summertime. Maybe that will help brighten Shaun's mood. I can only hope anyway.